I close my eyes to see.

I've learned my version of sleep is very different from most. I feel a change in consciousness and awareness that I can't quite put into words but I am going to try.

During grief we tend to exhaust our selves physically to not process the loss, I am no different.

With nothing left in me this day, I simply crawled into bed out of pure physical need to rest. I am almost immediately awoken by your whispers. Clearly knowing that you are no longer here, I am filled with excitement and awe at your presence, so sleep has to wait.

I listen intently to every word as I know time is limited. You ask me to walk with you and to just be there in that moment. So I do. We walk and talk about nothing and everything till the sun begins to rise and change the colors in the sky. You lean down to say I'll come back another day leaving your scent behind.

When I wake my physical body still feels that quick embrace and your scent is left behind. My legs ache of walking and I see the notes I wrote while we talked. Answers to questions I had been asking for weeks, reminders and other random words you spoke.

Most say an Out-of-body experience only comes in a near-death or at severe moments of trauma.

I disagree.

Soul Travel is a spiritual practice or gift where you can shift your awareness while sleeping. It's used by many departing souls to let their loved ones know they were thought of. If practiced soul travel can allow some of the most beautiful of memories after you loved one is gone.